Hi guys, life don't always go the way you wished dont they?
to be really honest to myself, i'm tired.
i'm tired facing unnecessary bullshit that hits me all day long.
i'm tired of breaking my own heart. im tired, i really am.
its not that easy to accept things just like that. its not easy to be
calm and act like you dont care when actually, you care more than anything else.
you know when you have to take care of people's feelings because
other people claim that you kept on hurting others?
it hurts.
the fact that you have to ignore what you feel and
take care of others that dont even care about you .
you know there comes a time when you just need a rest of everything.
I dont get how other people survive just like that.
i tried to be good, i tried.
i never thought of giving up.
Maybe life was meant to be hard.
I m sure I didnt asked for it.
There once i felt so miserable.
So I decided to make it as a happy day for me.
I told myself, "smile sara, try not to hurt anyone for today"
The day went absolutely amazing.
I was all nice, and basically it was wonderful
everyone goes like, why are you so happy go lucky today
anything happened last night?
See.
But its not easy.
you know its hard.
In the bright side you know you can put it on a try.
Funny how i felt so miserable in school.
and when i got back home,
seeing my friends happy.
it feels like,
why should i be so negative towards what i'll face another 3 years in a half.
its not like im the only person who's facing kan?
but then again realizing that you're not there with your bestfriends.
hurts. more than ever.
its as if like, youve planned to do this and that and this together
since you were a child.
but then,
it ended up just a dream
Youre alone.
You face things alone,
without anyone backing you up.
You felt awful.
I face those kind of things so many times,
uncounted .
But luckily,
faith is there for me to believe in myself.
In deep down below,
I know they are with me,
supporting me no matter what.
People are somehow jealous,
and thats why I had to go through those stupid things.
This is life.